Back
Im back from italy now, and i have been since yesterday. we dropped maria off at hers and then i went over to francescas finally saw her after three weeks was so nice! and i saw hannah today (: very nice.
Italy was absoutly amazing, the weather was great, the towns were gorgoues and it was so much fun the place we stayed in was the same as last year and me and maria had our own room, very relaxing, we took naps during the day sleept long and tanned, one day we took the train to florence and had a day there and a bit of shopping and then a few days later we took the train to Arezzo , i fell in love with that town it was absoultly stunning. And there we had nice lunch and some serious shopping. We left on sunday to drive over to Zofingen in Switzerland where we dropped off my brother at a basketball camp. Which i so want to go to next year (:. Looked like a lot of fun, we also ran into Mike and dimi there who are at the camp now. We stayed over night in a nice cute little hotel in the town, and then left the next day and araived back home. Im happy to be back but i do miss italy a bit and the nice warm hot weather and the pool. But at least now i can just enjoy having fun here :) ive missed everyone.
Im uploading some of the 900 pictuers i took wtih my new camera tomorrow since i managed to leave it in the posetion of francesca today, such a dummie haha.
and tomorrow is either going to be a chilled day at the see with some people or intown with francesca and hannah we shall see : )
Italy was absoutly amazing, the weather was great, the towns were gorgoues and it was so much fun the place we stayed in was the same as last year and me and maria had our own room, very relaxing, we took naps during the day sleept long and tanned, one day we took the train to florence and had a day there and a bit of shopping and then a few days later we took the train to Arezzo , i fell in love with that town it was absoultly stunning. And there we had nice lunch and some serious shopping. We left on sunday to drive over to Zofingen in Switzerland where we dropped off my brother at a basketball camp. Which i so want to go to next year (:. Looked like a lot of fun, we also ran into Mike and dimi there who are at the camp now. We stayed over night in a nice cute little hotel in the town, and then left the next day and araived back home. Im happy to be back but i do miss italy a bit and the nice warm hot weather and the pool. But at least now i can just enjoy having fun here :) ive missed everyone.
Im uploading some of the 900 pictuers i took wtih my new camera tomorrow since i managed to leave it in the posetion of francesca today, such a dummie haha.
and tomorrow is either going to be a chilled day at the see with some people or intown with francesca and hannah we shall see : )
Last one.
This is the last update before i head off to italy tomorrow.
But when im back ill continue updating my boring life as always ^^
anyways im waiting for Maria to come over now becuase she is coming with me to italy tomorrow, and were going to have a great relaxing time. im so excited. Ill try to not go onto anything while im gone , email, skype or facebook. I want to like just not have that distraction. But i dont know if ill be able to go more then a week hihi im such an addict. Today i was at hannahs until like 3ish and we just bumbed at hers didnt do anything. Last night germany played against spain and sadly they lost :( i watched it at Seehaus with a bunch of people. it was fun but wopuld have been better if germany won. Oh well i guesss. And then after been asleep at hannahs for about 30 min someone calls me in the middle of the night and woke me up i was sooo annoyed so i just took my battery out of my phone haha.
I did a tad bit of shopping with my mum and came home packed and did some cleaning before we leave tomorrow. Then the BEST thing so far this break. Since i improved my grades in school and effort and my parents were pleased with me they got me a camera !! :D gosh i was in tears almost i was so happy ive been wanting one for ages ! and my brother got his PS3 so hes busy with that now. I love my parents sometimes so much : ) it was so cute of them.
Anyways i guess maria will be here like anytime now so im going to just go and wait for her, and i wish all of you another amazing week of summer :)
Ask me anything while im gone. I loe answering things ::: http://formspring.me/Jamielynnlloyd
Btw i think its about time people stop judging others. Let them live there own life and go and worry about yours.
But when im back ill continue updating my boring life as always ^^
anyways im waiting for Maria to come over now becuase she is coming with me to italy tomorrow, and were going to have a great relaxing time. im so excited. Ill try to not go onto anything while im gone , email, skype or facebook. I want to like just not have that distraction. But i dont know if ill be able to go more then a week hihi im such an addict. Today i was at hannahs until like 3ish and we just bumbed at hers didnt do anything. Last night germany played against spain and sadly they lost :( i watched it at Seehaus with a bunch of people. it was fun but wopuld have been better if germany won. Oh well i guesss. And then after been asleep at hannahs for about 30 min someone calls me in the middle of the night and woke me up i was sooo annoyed so i just took my battery out of my phone haha.
I did a tad bit of shopping with my mum and came home packed and did some cleaning before we leave tomorrow. Then the BEST thing so far this break. Since i improved my grades in school and effort and my parents were pleased with me they got me a camera !! :D gosh i was in tears almost i was so happy ive been wanting one for ages ! and my brother got his PS3 so hes busy with that now. I love my parents sometimes so much : ) it was so cute of them.
Anyways i guess maria will be here like anytime now so im going to just go and wait for her, and i wish all of you another amazing week of summer :)
Ask me anything while im gone. I loe answering things ::: http://formspring.me/Jamielynnlloyd
Btw i think its about time people stop judging others. Let them live there own life and go and worry about yours.
Summer2010.
Everything goes on and on and on. Time wont wait for you. It wont stop and let you experience everything. It wont wait around for you to make up your mind about things. The desicions that you make in life should be the ones that you make for your self. They should be about you and what you want to do with your life.
Already in the short time ive been alive i have experinced so much. ive been around the world, learned different languages and tryed different things. Ive lived among people with different cultures and religions. I know that there i still so much to experience , so many things to go through and things to learn.
The summer is already going by so fast. Although it seems like just a small amount has gone by when you think about it time just goes by so fast. Although on friday i leave for italy with maria. And im so excited ! were staying longer now so it will be just such an amazing relaxing time , getting away from everything and laying out by the pool everyday. Im soooo excited !
Parents are back home tonight, and i have done all the cleaning and taking ccare of the house that is needed to be done, so i hope my parents are happy with me haha :)
The moment right before a kiss. When you know what about to happen. Has to be the most amazing feeling in the world.
Already in the short time ive been alive i have experinced so much. ive been around the world, learned different languages and tryed different things. Ive lived among people with different cultures and religions. I know that there i still so much to experience , so many things to go through and things to learn.
The summer is already going by so fast. Although it seems like just a small amount has gone by when you think about it time just goes by so fast. Although on friday i leave for italy with maria. And im so excited ! were staying longer now so it will be just such an amazing relaxing time , getting away from everything and laying out by the pool everyday. Im soooo excited !
Parents are back home tonight, and i have done all the cleaning and taking ccare of the house that is needed to be done, so i hope my parents are happy with me haha :)
The moment right before a kiss. When you know what about to happen. Has to be the most amazing feeling in the world.
“I remember a party with my sister. I was very scared, thinking: I have to drink. These people are so much older. I have to impress them.” - Megan 6“When I was in year 9, my friends pressured me into smoking marijuana or "pot". I really didn't want to but I thought life is short, and I gave into peer pressure. The first time, I suddenly spaced out and got high. I didn't know what to do, I wanted to beat people up. I hated it, but I kept on trying it whenever we were at parties.” - Simone 7“At 16 I was not ready to lose my virginity, I didn't have a steady boyfriend, I had little confidence in myself and I had no idea what I was getting myself into. All my friends were having sex. They acted as if losing your virginity was no big deal. It is! Trust me! I now know that I lost my virginity to the WRONG guy! He was a sleaze and I was just another girl to him.” - Fi 8
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wmwFVjcGHfU
So the summer has begun and ive been with out parents for nearly a week now. Its the chillest thing in the world i must say. Although now im like broke for the rest of the time hehe whopppsi. So ive had some people over and just been chilling and also had a nice day at hannahs, the weather has just been absoultly amazing. Although in 5 days im off to italy with Maria, and im so excited, 9 days just getting away from everything and being with a good friend, what more can you ask for !
So i got to thinking again, as always.. What is the point of bullshiting about people behind their backs and pretending to be all fine with them when their around you ? it just doesnt make any sense, Why not just be true and stand up for what you really belive in. Either dont go around and talk bulls--- just because everyone else is or atleast say it to the persons/peoples face. I think everything when it comes down to rumors and gossip would be a heck of a lot stressful then it is when you do, do the whole behind the back talking thing.
p.s. i miss sweden so much .
So i got to thinking again, as always.. What is the point of bullshiting about people behind their backs and pretending to be all fine with them when their around you ? it just doesnt make any sense, Why not just be true and stand up for what you really belive in. Either dont go around and talk bulls--- just because everyone else is or atleast say it to the persons/peoples face. I think everything when it comes down to rumors and gossip would be a heck of a lot stressful then it is when you do, do the whole behind the back talking thing.
p.s. i miss sweden so much .
Hope you find me.
The day is feeling hopeless, as though nothing is moving on and nothing is coming towards me its just still. I dont want to wake up i just want to sleep, sleep, sleep the day away. I hardly hear any words, but when i do i want to burry my self inside your words tuck my self between the letters and stay there. forever. I want the sentences the long flowwing things just like hair in the wind to make sense to me, like rivers. Light leaks that make everything seem so much more beautiful, flaws, deatch chasing happieness and dreams in a box-like car Stopping at gas-stations and lighting up a ciggerette. I decided today that i wont l---- unless it truly matters.
SUMMMMMMMER
Today at 12 o'clock we were officaly released from school for summer holidays. I just finished 9th grade and i passed
i got an award in math haha i was SOOO happy when they called my name i like screamed in the middle of the PAC. Akward but what ever. and cosma is over at mine at the moment i think he jsut ate all my food in the whole house and now were going into town with my mama shortly to find some clothes and a dress for her for a weeding.
I just noticed something people can somehow seem to always talk their way out of situations and people seem to belive the bullshit thats thrown at them no matter what happend. If you want to be forgiven or you need to forgive someone then make sure they show they mean it or that you do because other whys those words you just heard arent even worth your time hearing. Being true to the people you love is the most valuable thing ever. Its something that can save a friendship for a life time and having people beside you who you can always count on to not let you down no matter what means everything. Becuase thats what really counts. To find out who matters and who doesnt in life. Everything else changes so do the people but at least they are with you through out the changing if their there for you and your there for them.
Isar toniiiight : D and then tomorrow my parents are gone for 7 days and im with out parents thats just awesome and chilled as hell. The best way to start the summer.
i got an award in math haha i was SOOO happy when they called my name i like screamed in the middle of the PAC. Akward but what ever. and cosma is over at mine at the moment i think he jsut ate all my food in the whole house and now were going into town with my mama shortly to find some clothes and a dress for her for a weeding.
I just noticed something people can somehow seem to always talk their way out of situations and people seem to belive the bullshit thats thrown at them no matter what happend. If you want to be forgiven or you need to forgive someone then make sure they show they mean it or that you do because other whys those words you just heard arent even worth your time hearing. Being true to the people you love is the most valuable thing ever. Its something that can save a friendship for a life time and having people beside you who you can always count on to not let you down no matter what means everything. Becuase thats what really counts. To find out who matters and who doesnt in life. Everything else changes so do the people but at least they are with you through out the changing if their there for you and your there for them.
Isar toniiiight : D and then tomorrow my parents are gone for 7 days and im with out parents thats just awesome and chilled as hell. The best way to start the summer.
shortiiieee
So yesterday USA lost to Gahna, at least the last african team is still in to play, and today its Germany playing ! i am so watching that : )
Two more days of school left, three days until summer soooo excited : D
And oh yea i get my exams back tomorrow...nervous :S My fingers are at least crossed ^^
Two more days of school left, three days until summer soooo excited : D
And oh yea i get my exams back tomorrow...nervous :S My fingers are at least crossed ^^
If you live life with out feeling then your not living. Life is all about the moments and with the moments comes passion, pain, tears, sadness, laughter and so much more.
Just let it in and feel it because eventually you have to come to terms with what ever is going on.
But sometimes the pain and the hurt becoms to much so you just decide to block it off for a while.
Whatwhatwhatever.
Im off ot a BBQ with some people right now and to watch some soccer and also to celebrate the swedish " Midsommar" which i have now missed three years in a row : ( i hope i can be there next year ! :*
Just let it in and feel it because eventually you have to come to terms with what ever is going on.
But sometimes the pain and the hurt becoms to much so you just decide to block it off for a while.
Whatwhatwhatever.
Im off ot a BBQ with some people right now and to watch some soccer and also to celebrate the swedish " Midsommar" which i have now missed three years in a row : ( i hope i can be there next year ! :*
Alcohol fucks you over everytime.
Well last night was pretty insane i must say. And something just hit me and i know it all had to do with alcohol last night way to much -.- and i just friggin broke down sooo embarising ! i mean i dont even know why right now hehe
the night was still pretty good though and i got picked up at around 2ish by my mom : ) and i just noticed last night how amazing some people truly can be. Thats the thing that matters the most no matter what other people say, do or think. If they dont know me then it doesnt matter... and truly if im not shown respect by them then why should i show it back? i dont understand why but lately i have been letting people walk all over me and not standing up for my self which i used to do all the time. I need to find that part of me again and get that back because i know thats what i am lacking at the moment and thats whats getting to me so intensly.
USA game today at the smith's so im just gonna do a family day i think since their all leaving on wednesday and i wont see them for a week.
toodles :*
FOUR DAYS UNTIL SUMMER and we have sun <3
the night was still pretty good though and i got picked up at around 2ish by my mom : ) and i just noticed last night how amazing some people truly can be. Thats the thing that matters the most no matter what other people say, do or think. If they dont know me then it doesnt matter... and truly if im not shown respect by them then why should i show it back? i dont understand why but lately i have been letting people walk all over me and not standing up for my self which i used to do all the time. I need to find that part of me again and get that back because i know thats what i am lacking at the moment and thats whats getting to me so intensly.
USA game today at the smith's so im just gonna do a family day i think since their all leaving on wednesday and i wont see them for a week.
toodles :*
FOUR DAYS UNTIL SUMMER and we have sun <3
Today i decided to stay home and not go to school since it was pointless day anyways, and the weather is amaziiinngg, ive been outside for like an hour now , taking a little break so i dont burn ^^ Had to give back the laptops yesterday so sad, i didnt want to part from it and now i have to use this old computer down in my celer for the rest of the summer... nasty. Anyways i was intown with Franny yesterday was really chilled found some amazing shoes and had the sweetest incident occur : )
Anywho i guess i will go back outside now and just wait for franny, katy and cosma to arrive at mine later cuase theyre all getting ready at mine for Xavers tonight.. btw didi i mention im so excited !
toooodles :*
P.S. cheek out this link, newst obsession :// http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ADKZFfhXuRs&feature=player_embedded#!
Anywho i guess i will go back outside now and just wait for franny, katy and cosma to arrive at mine later cuase theyre all getting ready at mine for Xavers tonight.. btw didi i mention im so excited !
toooodles :*
P.S. cheek out this link, newst obsession :// http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ADKZFfhXuRs&feature=player_embedded#!
Byebye macbook, ill see you in august ;( hello to a life with out the mac -.-
No one could pinpoint her name, it was although she was constantly engraved into everyone’s heads, her shiny black eyes which seemed full of beauty, her collarbones which gracefully jutted out of her ivory skin, and most of all, her curly hair, blonde with streaks of white that showed constant strenuous work of dying and almost 95% pinned back. She was adored, by most all, and it was an odd feeling for the young girl. Only seventeen and still, she understood so much when she herself was still being lectured by others who understood so little.
Her boyfriend’s name was Joshua or Cole or Dylan, some typical familiar name in which you’re bound to never remember until the third introduction. He wasn’t anything special, yet she found so much in him that others didn’t. The way he told her funny stories when he was high, the way he tickled her to say hello, the way he constantly told his friends how cute she was. They were simple things that appealed to her, simplicity became all she wanted.
The funny thing, and slightly ironic, is now I am supposed to tell you about this mysterious girl. You expect me—as the writer—to entertain you with the likes of this girl. Well let me be upfront, this is a fictional character, made up in my mind and dead at age seven. Why age seven? Because once age eight came, I started growing older and things that were once so simple became complex and devastating. This character was gone, just as the Buddhism believed everything will eventually end, this memory of mine did. I am only telling you this now as a slight warning, or even “folk tale.” Keep in mind, the only bare witness to these accounts are my mind.
Her name was Desislava, it meant “seeking glory,” and was common within countries that shared the cyrillic alphabet. Besides that, everyone called her Desi. She was petite and intelligent but was unable to accomplish even the most insignificant task because she merely withheld most of her free time and took up to laughing amongst friends. To be honest, her features were all marked with beauty, yet when her genetics called her body and mind to form, nothing made sense. She didn’t mind being average looking, one of the few who didn’t starve herself once she hit sixteen, she became a level-headed girl. Although the drink merely killed her once or twice, she lived on, eventually to be married, have kids, and teach her children about youth. She would one day tell them, “preserve your youth.” Because in all honesty, she wished she had preserved hers.
Her boyfriend’s name was Joshua or Cole or Dylan, some typical familiar name in which you’re bound to never remember until the third introduction. He wasn’t anything special, yet she found so much in him that others didn’t. The way he told her funny stories when he was high, the way he tickled her to say hello, the way he constantly told his friends how cute she was. They were simple things that appealed to her, simplicity became all she wanted.
The funny thing, and slightly ironic, is now I am supposed to tell you about this mysterious girl. You expect me—as the writer—to entertain you with the likes of this girl. Well let me be upfront, this is a fictional character, made up in my mind and dead at age seven. Why age seven? Because once age eight came, I started growing older and things that were once so simple became complex and devastating. This character was gone, just as the Buddhism believed everything will eventually end, this memory of mine did. I am only telling you this now as a slight warning, or even “folk tale.” Keep in mind, the only bare witness to these accounts are my mind.
Her name was Desislava, it meant “seeking glory,” and was common within countries that shared the cyrillic alphabet. Besides that, everyone called her Desi. She was petite and intelligent but was unable to accomplish even the most insignificant task because she merely withheld most of her free time and took up to laughing amongst friends. To be honest, her features were all marked with beauty, yet when her genetics called her body and mind to form, nothing made sense. She didn’t mind being average looking, one of the few who didn’t starve herself once she hit sixteen, she became a level-headed girl. Although the drink merely killed her once or twice, she lived on, eventually to be married, have kids, and teach her children about youth. She would one day tell them, “preserve your youth.” Because in all honesty, she wished she had preserved hers.
Bottoms up Bitches.
Feel the alcohol run through your veins. Feel the substances change your opinions. Feel the night take off and know the regrets tomorrow awaits.
Fuck normality. I am not here to impress. Party til youre passed out Drink til youre dead Dance all night til you can't feel your legs.
Im so excited for the god damn weekend. Two more sleeps and were there : )
Tomorrow i will be helping the 1st & 2nd graders with their sports day and then when schools out into town with Frank to do some shopping me and her both have not been intown for sometime now together it shall be nice, Also tonight is the last night with my mac due to that i have to give it back to the school for the summer tomorrow thats so patheticly sad. I dont want to say goodbye ;( And friday were off to the lake with the school its supposed to be nice weather and then cosma is coming over to mine on friday so were going to go to Xaver's 15th Birthday party together. So excited to just be with everyone again : ) and then the countdown for summer holidays is : 6 days until were down for good. And 16 days until im off to italy ( Tuscanny ) with schatz, Maria. It will be an amazing 8 nights under the tuscan sun im so excited for just everything.
P.S. my dady is getting one of those cameras before we leave to italy I CAN NOT WAIT ! ive been dying to have one for ages.
And that was my update for now , also toodlles. Also if you dont see as many updates over the july august months that will be due to the lack of internet or computer time and also i will be busy busy over the summer : ) xoxo
Fuck normality. I am not here to impress. Party til youre passed out Drink til youre dead Dance all night til you can't feel your legs.
Im so excited for the god damn weekend. Two more sleeps and were there : )
Tomorrow i will be helping the 1st & 2nd graders with their sports day and then when schools out into town with Frank to do some shopping me and her both have not been intown for sometime now together it shall be nice, Also tonight is the last night with my mac due to that i have to give it back to the school for the summer tomorrow thats so patheticly sad. I dont want to say goodbye ;( And friday were off to the lake with the school its supposed to be nice weather and then cosma is coming over to mine on friday so were going to go to Xaver's 15th Birthday party together. So excited to just be with everyone again : ) and then the countdown for summer holidays is : 6 days until were down for good. And 16 days until im off to italy ( Tuscanny ) with schatz, Maria. It will be an amazing 8 nights under the tuscan sun im so excited for just everything.
P.S. my dady is getting one of those cameras before we leave to italy I CAN NOT WAIT ! ive been dying to have one for ages.
And that was my update for now , also toodlles. Also if you dont see as many updates over the july august months that will be due to the lack of internet or computer time and also i will be busy busy over the summer : ) xoxo
you’re stuck in this endless pithole where you think you’re doing something right; finally. but, you realize that you can’t climb out. and no matter what you do, you’re claw marks still are engraved into this rock wall. and no matter whom you call for help, they get so close and give up. and all you realize you can do is dig this hole deeper until you reach something darker to forget about the light.
Come out and play?
"Giving up doesn't always mean you are weak; sometimes it means that you are strong enough to let go"
all i want at the moment is to have the weekend here and get this god forsaken year done and over with. School is out on the 29th of june and all this weekend is about is the drinking and being with people, Total raver weekend. Im so excited and i need it so badly. School is out in 7 days. jeselouis thats so nice. And this week is really chilled at school tomoroow were going somewhere, thursday its just movies in school firday were going to the lake and then on friday its Xaver's birthday party. Dayumn thats going to be off the hook.
" I think we deserve people who really, really truly care about us. "
all i want at the moment is to have the weekend here and get this god forsaken year done and over with. School is out on the 29th of june and all this weekend is about is the drinking and being with people, Total raver weekend. Im so excited and i need it so badly. School is out in 7 days. jeselouis thats so nice. And this week is really chilled at school tomoroow were going somewhere, thursday its just movies in school firday were going to the lake and then on friday its Xaver's birthday party. Dayumn thats going to be off the hook.
" I think we deserve people who really, really truly care about us. "
Dont ever let the fear of failing keep you from succeding.
So i guess today could have gone better, but certain things happen for certain reasons, and anything that brings you to an ache eventualy makes you stronger, and brings you something better along the way. Anything that can break ur spirit shouldnt have been there in the first place, but sometimes it just scraps it and you find away to get over it and it all turns out better in the long run. I personally all ready know many things that have made me a better and stronger person today even though when they were happening all i wanted was for the pain to go away, and not to feel anything. That is what i tend to do in most cases. Until it just breaks and i eventully have to come to terms with it. I think everyone has to eventually weather they want to or not.
" Hell is a teenage girl" anyone who dissagrees has never been a teenage girl, therefor will never know what hell is.
"The best thing about getting lost is what you find along the way. " Somehow this is true in every aspect of life. Think of how the small things might have just been able to change your life, weather it be for the worse or for the better i can almost asure you that something small has changed you and that you werent even looking for it in the first place.
Things suck at times, but being sad about it wont help anyone, nor will it help you. Just leave it be accept it and move on. For there is so much more in life to be greatful for either way.
Im excited for this weekend : ) and this week in away since i techniclly dont even have school, at least no classes : D and my mom came home today from australia, and francesca has been at mine (: were going to watch a horror movie right now so toddeeloo, ( btw the movie name : Legion, i hope its good ! )
i need to get my mind off of things and have a goodnight sleep tongiht
also gute nacht , und ja. :*
" Maybe its not always about fixing something broken, but starting over and creating something better . "
" Hell is a teenage girl" anyone who dissagrees has never been a teenage girl, therefor will never know what hell is.
"The best thing about getting lost is what you find along the way. " Somehow this is true in every aspect of life. Think of how the small things might have just been able to change your life, weather it be for the worse or for the better i can almost asure you that something small has changed you and that you werent even looking for it in the first place.
Things suck at times, but being sad about it wont help anyone, nor will it help you. Just leave it be accept it and move on. For there is so much more in life to be greatful for either way.
Im excited for this weekend : ) and this week in away since i techniclly dont even have school, at least no classes : D and my mom came home today from australia, and francesca has been at mine (: were going to watch a horror movie right now so toddeeloo, ( btw the movie name : Legion, i hope its good ! )
i need to get my mind off of things and have a goodnight sleep tongiht
also gute nacht , und ja. :*
" Maybe its not always about fixing something broken, but starting over and creating something better . "
See how it feels right now but its going to get better someday.
So this weekend i have been out all weekend, friday at someplace in the city with friends( although my passport and money and wallet got stolen-.-) and then yesterday ( saturday ) i was at a going away party and around 8 went with hannah to a little gathering at a friends house which was chilled. Today im off to maria's at 5 and were just doing a nice little girls night : ) so excited for next weekend though already i think theres something every night from the 25th to the 29th! And my mom comes back from austraila on tuesday.
I wonder sometimes how things would be if you didnt meet people or do certain things. I wish in someways that i could just figure out how people work so i could understand them in different situations and you kinda then know what to expect and how to prepare your self.
So this weekend i have been out all weekend, friday at someplace in the city with friends( although my passport and money and wallet got stolen-.-) and then yesterday ( saturday ) i was at a going away party and around 8 went with hannah to a little gathering at a friends house which was chilled. Today im off to maria's at 5 and were just doing a nice little girls night : ) so excited for next weekend though already i think theres something every night from the 25th to the 29th! And my mom comes back from austraila on tuesday.
I wonder sometimes how things would be if you didnt meet people or do certain things. I wish in someways that i could just figure out how people work so i could understand them in different situations and you kinda then know what to expect and how to prepare your self.
life isnt always fair.
Sometimes you dont need someone to talk to, but you just need someone to listen to you. Weather it be you freaking out crying or just hystericaly hyper for any odd reason its always nice to have someone you can count on. Yet this is some how always the hardest for people to do since everyone has their own out look among other peoples situations. Its easier to sit down listen and then give back the advice you think someone wants to hear or the comforting words that you know might make a difference ... although sometimes its just better to listen and not say anything.. Just to be there for a person.
JIIIIHUUUUUUU !!! IM DONE WITH EXAMS !! all i have to do now i wait for summer to begin on the 29th of june :D im outtiieee , sooo excited for tonight ! (:
One more exam. History and then i am done with my exams for 20I0. i can not wait oh gosh.
So this weekend should be fun going out tonight and then sunday at marias house ( sturmfrei ) !! waa finally done with it in 5 hours
caioie
So this weekend should be fun going out tonight and then sunday at marias house ( sturmfrei ) !! waa finally done with it in 5 hours
caioie
One more day.
If one thing in your life ends up going wrong or not how you planned it to turn out or end up then dont let it ruin the other good things you have going at the moment. Let life take its corse and dont get upset or the things that change. Thats just the way it is for everything and everyone people change things change learn to go with the flow.. Dont give up your hope on the other things if something goes down hill dont let it get you down for it is not worth most of the time to let it ruin everything you have going on. I mean what good will it do walking around moping about ? nothing but get people to maybe feel sorry for you ? but how will that help you.. it wont thats how. Be happy and live in the moment becuase thats all that counts forget the past forget the futre because in the long term its now that really matters. This is where you can make the difference you cant change the past and you dont know what you have coming. Let it happen how its going to and just enjoy it even if its hard at the time.
I have finished my, english , geography, science and german exams. Tomorrow i have my final two exams Math and histroy. Im only dreading the amount of writting for history. My arm is really strting to ache form all the writting ugh. But after that its done i have completed ninth grade assements projects homework everything done with ! im so excited and then all it is is to wait for lovely summer to come around. And i just want to make this summer remeberable. With the ups and downs it might bring all i want is to have some fun and get away from things. Thats all i ask for thats all i want. And thats what im hoping to recive.
Toodles:*
" Dont make desicions when your angry, Dont make promises when your happy. "
I have finished my, english , geography, science and german exams. Tomorrow i have my final two exams Math and histroy. Im only dreading the amount of writting for history. My arm is really strting to ache form all the writting ugh. But after that its done i have completed ninth grade assements projects homework everything done with ! im so excited and then all it is is to wait for lovely summer to come around. And i just want to make this summer remeberable. With the ups and downs it might bring all i want is to have some fun and get away from things. Thats all i ask for thats all i want. And thats what im hoping to recive.
Toodles:*
" Dont make desicions when your angry, Dont make promises when your happy. "
Sooner and sooner. Im so excited. ( Two more days. )
day one of exams are over , i have another 4hours total to sit exams for this school year. then my ninth grade is done and school nearly has come to an end. Today we had english and geography. I feelt like crying once the geography was done my arm and hand were in such pain from all that writting ! Speaking of the end of the year by the way. Summer is literlly around the corner a total of 14 days until school is out. And we have 7 weeks of forgetting everything we spent the last months learning and craming into our brains. First days my family shall be in sweden and ill be staying here , then on the 9th of july its off to Tuscanna with my schatz Maria : D im so god damn excited just for the last day of school. For it to be done with and being able to stay up til all hours of the night , not craming for a test or finishing a project and just getting messed up all the time with not a care in the world : ) Summer is near and im excited. I can not wait . I dont care if the weather is crap or if its boiling hot i just dont want school .
Exams..
Today is the first day of 9th grade exams, ok that doesnt sound to bad since nineth grade isnt the most important... but still sitting for the next three days writting two two hours exams a day is just a bitch. By friday they will be over At 16:00 on the 18th of june my exams are done : D !
Today i have English first ( essay ) then two hour break then geography, which is some questions and a perrwaysive essay about the UK. Wish me the best of luck tschüssie
Today i have English first ( essay ) then two hour break then geography, which is some questions and a perrwaysive essay about the UK. Wish me the best of luck tschüssie
next three days this is me -.-
Ive found out that im really into posting photos. And expressing certain feelings through out the photos i find online and so on. Its really intersting acutaly to do that. Its really intersting i find acutaly due to that you can really tell what people like or how they feel in certain ways if you have certain images up.
I wonder sometimes what your thinking
when you see me
when im laughing or if i look happy
and sometimes i wonder how you feel
when i am with someone else
when you see me and im not so happy.
But i think that i wonder sometimes most how i feel and how think
when i see you
when you laugh
are with my friends
and why it hurts sometimes
Should it take this long ?
or is it just me who has been caught up in time.
But you should know that it hits me sometimes just like that
that there are questions that just appear to me
that i can handle on my own sometimes.
I wonder sometimes what your thinking
when you see me
when im laughing or if i look happy
and sometimes i wonder how you feel
when i am with someone else
when you see me and im not so happy.
But i think that i wonder sometimes most how i feel and how think
when i see you
when you laugh
are with my friends
and why it hurts sometimes
Should it take this long ?
or is it just me who has been caught up in time.
But you should know that it hits me sometimes just like that
that there are questions that just appear to me
that i can handle on my own sometimes.
Jag vet fan inte hur jag ska kunna få det igenom hans huvud , jag har varit så jävla accepterand och låtit inget störa mej , iallafall vad han vet jag låter honom göra vad han vill , men ändå så är han så här, jag kan göra inget mer ifrån att gråta jsut nu. Jag vet fan inte vad jag ska ta mej till just nu. Men jag vill i allafall inte vara den som väntar omkring tills han vill göra något !
EXAMS- are in two days. FML.
If i dont get at least a four in science my teacher has to fail me, so im completly dead for that. Because theres no way on earther i can get a four thats like me learning the whole year and knowing it in three days... yea right goodluck.
But on friday im done with the exams, so everything i learnt this year is about to be tested through out the corse of 6 exams, each about 2 hours long and yea. Uhoh wish me luck ;-)
But on friday im done with the exams, so everything i learnt this year is about to be tested through out the corse of 6 exams, each about 2 hours long and yea. Uhoh wish me luck ;-)
I've waited.
The world is waiting to come into my skin, but I can’t allow anything in that doesn’t uplift my spirit. There are so many things that have what I call, “spirit-killing” abilities. When you’re spirit’s dead, it shows. These past few days have been highly emotional and have brought me to my knees.The world is waiting to come into my skin, but I can’t allow anything in that doesn’t uplift my spirit. There are so many things that have what I call, “spirit-killing” abilities. When you’re spirit’s dead, it shows. These past few days have been highly emotional and have brought me to my knees.
Well this weekend was a bit of a drag i guess... not that much happend. On Friday me and some friends went to the starnberger see and met some people wasnt exactly what we thought our night was going to turn out to be, and the highlight of the night was with out a dought the sbahn ride back and walking back to Queen hairymarys house. Then on saturday i was just at her with frank and then i got home around 3.30 i think maybe later cant rmbr, my dad went out and then i went and met some people in grünwald, even though it took a while to get there it was pretty fun, had a cool talk with someone was intersting (: and today i guess my plan is too study but i really want to go out and watch the game somewhere tonight since Germany is playing their first game in the WM ( i think thats it ) but it should be intersting, guess i just need to find a place.
Exams begin on the 16th. And im hoping to finish art before they begin meaning the following week i will have two free days. And thats Just brilliant. Anyways i guess thats my little update. Laptops go back on the 25th thats so depressing in all kinds of ways. Its like giving away your key to society in a way. : ( sad.
caiooie
Exams begin on the 16th. And im hoping to finish art before they begin meaning the following week i will have two free days. And thats Just brilliant. Anyways i guess thats my little update. Laptops go back on the 25th thats so depressing in all kinds of ways. Its like giving away your key to society in a way. : ( sad.
caiooie
