So today was the first of three deutsche prüfung, for my unit, Goodbye lenin!
so after this week that will be done

At lunch i was with Josi Schmid, and we sat and fruit under the stairs in the senior school. it was fun we havent hung out alone for a while so it was nice (:

and when i get back home, i have so much work todo, first i have to do all my cleaning-.-, then i have to do my homework, start on my one world essay, start my rock project ( due friday ) work on my magazine for Geo. due on the 18th ( i think ^^) and then i need to basiclly FINISH my art book, which im totaly F****D for , hah oh well, and i bet i wont even end up doing half of that

caio bitches:*

Und also jetz soll ich eig ein deutsche prüfung haben aber ich würde es total gekakt.

The other day, me && one of like my best friends ditched school
we were walking to starnberg ( a village nearby ) and on the way we lite one up... a car drives by... and were both like OH SHIT THATS the head of school !! frreaked out and ran to the end of th raoad to hide ^^
we got to the schwimmbad, and the swiming part was closed, i tlaked him into going to the sauna, we eneded up being in there for like four hours
thats a day i wont forget, spent with L O N G deep talks
danke schatzii <3

--cosma--ichliebedich

You know that someday everything you have done in your youth will most likely come back an haunt you.
weather it be you smoked, did drugs or fought with your best friend. Becuase who knows what those things casused you to do then. They might have fu***d
your whole life up. Maybe that one hit or one word changed your life forever. With out your knowing it. I think ive managed to already do enough damage to my future, learn from other peoples misstakes, and dont repeat them. Even if its just out of curriosity, because it is N O T worth it.

Look  were in high school , we have our whole lives ahead of us...
so we think. you never know that stepping out of the car at the wrong time; or turning the corner on your bike but end in absolut tradgedy. And htink like this what if that person was one of your closest best firends, and you were in a fight.. that person thought you didnt want anything to get better. wouldnt it suck if things ended like that. and you never had the chance to fix things ?
well think about that the next time your in a fight.
becuase not everyone gets that chance, not everyone has the time to forgive.
-"Francesca Schweiger".

It seems that i can try as hard as i want to , but its not gonna meet the standards of everyone else. And especially not what they expect from me. They want me to be truthful && honest all the time. Sorry babes... no one ever is. everyone tells lies to cover their ass its the way life works. People expect me to put my life on hold and wait for them to be ready.. even though they said it was never gonna happen.. I MOVED ON!
stress is all i get from this god damn place.
ive got my good friends and they all love me and i love them.
even though ive had my fights with them things got better and now were as tight as ever:: im done with the drama, im done with the fakes, the wannabes, i just want to be my self.
&& i want people to want me for W H O i am! get that through your head, im not changing for you, so take me how i am.
No one is perfect... you scrwed up too.